Petty...

When something becomes part of your daily routine, it's weird not doing it, right? So let's say you talk to someone everyday, try to call at least once a day because you miss their voice, yada yada etc.
Then you get mad at them and you decide not to talk to them and when you get bored of trying to distract yourself, you can't stop thinking about them.
Yeah, I'm in this situation and yeah, my boyfriend made me mad. No, he doesn't know that I'm extremely upset right now and slowly getting more pissed as more time passes without him trying to text me.
If you're wondering, which you aren't, but if you are, he didn't text me all day yesterday. We called in the morning, he hung up without warning, didn't text me again. He did, however, text one of his friends who had to tell me that he wasn't texting back because he was busy. He was busy........playing video games. Okay yeah, sure, maybe you can't pause it but he had to of had a break at some point between the time since he hung up yesterday and 12:27 this afternoon when he finally texted saying "morning." That morning text was the first thing he'd said to me since hanging up yesterday. It is now 9 minutes to 7 pm and he hasn't tried to text me again since. He hasn't tried to communicate at all. I didn't text him after that morning text because I was pissed. I still am pissed. No, I'm not gonna try to talk to him until he actually tries to get my attention. Yes, I know I'm being a crazy and super petty girlfriend, but I'm 15 so let me be mad. What happened was still a dick move on his part and I wish he would've just said "I can't talk right now, I might be busy for a while" because then I would've been like okay.
I'm gonna be honest, it sucks. I don't wanna text him because if I do, I'm weak and way too attached. I want to know that he's thinking about me, that he'll start a conversation because right now I feel like he doesn't want to text me at all. I probably annoyed him too much, but even if I did, he could've told me. I don't like to bother people and I'm used to being called annoying so what would I care, but being basically ignored doesn't fucking feel good and I'm upset about it.

Wild Flamingo

I totally forgot to post my dyed hair, but no one actually cares so I'm gonna just say it's okay.

Popcorn Chicken

I kind of want more people to read my blog. I mean, I know it's boring, but I just think it'd be nice. I posted the link on a few of my social medias, only three of them though. I posted them on Wattpad, Poetizer, and Tumblr which are the ones that I know I don't have anyone I know on. Well, I'm not 100% sure about Wattpad, but I'm just gonna pretend I am.
I have some pretty crazy stories from my life that I think would be cool to tell if I wasn't so embarrassed and even then, I'm not sure how long this whole blog thing is gonna last. I have a hard time starting new habits. I just don't know, but I'm gonna try to keep it up because this nice. It's nicer than just opening up a new google doc every time I think of some random shit or whatever. I guess I just like the idea of people out there somewhere in the world reading this post and liking it, maybe even checking back once in a while to see new things I've posted. I tried starting a blog like this on an old Tumblr account I had, but it just didn't work out and it didn't feel that nice. Tumblr is nice for shit posting , venting, and maybe posting a poem or two, but I just don't feel like anyone is gonna read that shit. On here, I have this feeling that if I keep it up and if I try to get it out there a little, I might gain a constant reader.
I definitely consider myself a writer. I love writing with all of my heart, it's my passion. I'm gonna be honest with whoever is reading this.....I love writing more than my boyfriend. Yeah, I said it. Honestly though, I know that even if a pencil breaks or runs out of lead, writing is never gonna leave me. I'll always be able to write, even if I'm living on the street completely and utterly broke. I love my boyfriend, of course I love him. He's my second biggest love currently (he's actually tied with my dog because seriously, my dog is my baby). My boyfriend is here for me right now, but I don't know how long it's gonna last. I hope we last long, I would not mind even a minuscule bit if we actually grew up, dated for 10 years and then got married.
One day, I do wanna write an autobiography. I want to help people and I think maybe I could use my life as a learning experience and a way to help people. I think it'd help a lot if I kept a record of some of my days. It's helping me now too.

Well anyways, signing off for now.