10:36 pm

It's days past the start of Spring Break and I guess it's been good so far.
Day 1- Went to Splash with my boyfriend and one of our mutual friends who's the one who invited us. I don't know how to swim so I almost drowned, but honestly that's okay. I found out my boyfriend is terrified of drowning, so that's something I should keep note of.
Day 2- I started watching Blue Exorcist because my boyfriend said I'd like it. I do like it, I think it's very good, although when I started the second season I was confused at first but I understand the timeline now. Also my mom came home from her trip to the coast with her secret boyfriend. Overall, I guess it was just very mundane cause I laid in bed all day.
Day 3- Tried to clean, meant to get things done. Really I just relaxed and ended up doing nothing. This was a mundane day too but I liked it more than the day before.
Day 4 (Today)- I cried a lot because my boyfriend and I got into a fight. It didn't last long though, we talked through it. I'm glad that we can communicate the way we do. Sometimes he doesn't tell me things and I feel like he doesn't trust me but I know he does and I don't want to push him. There's thing we both don't know about each other even though sometimes we forget that because we're teenagers and we think we tell each other everything, but I know we don't. He's always able to be so logical to me and honestly, it helps a lot. His ability to provide sense when I feel so sad and scrambled and fucked up, it's nice. Oh gee, I'm rambling.

My friend says she can see through my eyes that I'm a good writer. When I told this to me boyfriend he said he saw something else and then the conversation got super deep. My boyfriend said that he can see a dark and haunting past that I wish to run away from but he can also see bits of sparkles and happiness. I don't know how to really feel about this, but maybe I'll think on it. People say eyes are windows to the soul but I've never really looked in my eyes that much before, or ever. I don't like making eye contact with people either. I think the most beautiful thing is a person's laughter. Well, that's the most beautiful sound to me, but a person themselves....hm I guess i don't actually know. Beauty is in the eye pf the beholder, but I don't know. I don't know a lot of things, I mean, I am only in high school after all.

I guess I will have to think on it, but I'm gonna be honest, I probably won't.

Signing off for now.